The anxiety of making the first leap to anything used to cripple me. Really anything that involved the smallest amount of commitment. From starting a new book to larger events like buying a house or having a child. I mean some anxiety should be normal. If you didn’t feel anything you’d probably have tendencies of a psychopath.
Wrapping my head around the thought of never having a drink again was nearly impossible. Not drinking, I could reason with, but the word Never got to me. It still does. Imagine if I told you that you could never have chocolate again. Most of you would look at me like I was fucking crazy. If I asked you not to eat chocolate just for today I bet most of you would say no problem. That’s the mentality you need to have with this. It’s not never, just not today. People ask me all the time are you ever going to drink again? How the fuck should I know? I’d like to picture myself drinking a Corona when I’m retired on the beach later in life. Right now I’m good though.
The leap however is the hardest part. Just make it through day one. Rinse and repeat. This single-handedly has changed my view on starting anything new. You will slowly condition yourself to “figuring it out.” Almost like faking it to you make it. And trust me when you overcome withdrawals you can overcome just about anything. If you are reading this and you’ve never had to experience detoxing this concept still applies.
Stop waiting for Friday, for summer, for someone to fall in love with you, for life. Happiness is achieved when you stop waiting for it and make the most of the moment you are in now. If I still lived afraid of leaps I wouldn’t have the career I have now, friends, beautiful house, wife and most importantly my son. I thought it was illegal for me to reproduce but I did it anyways! Start small and work your way up. Experience new things. Pay attention to the now and slow time down. You may know nothing but hardship and the distruction of addiction. I’m here telling you that there is so much more for you out there and there is no limit to your happiness.